I've reverted back to terrible insomnia in the last 8 weeks as I'm really struggling with a newish job (9 months in), am not delivering and will get found out and probably lose the job – it's certainly pretty unbearable. I feel I've blagged it this far and really don't know what I'll do. I have a young family and fortunately not a massive mortgage but simply don't know how I'll make any money so am like a rabbit in the headlights. A friend in a similar position took his life years ago, so that's rarely out of my mind.
I started waking at 5am, then 3am now 1am. Last night I went to bed at 11am, woke at midnight, took half a Zopiclone. Woke at 3am. In desperation I took another half but didn;t go back to sleep. Desperate. Not taken more than 2 halfs a week for last 6 weeks or so.
Deep down I know I need to get on top of or out of th ejob for my own sake. Yesterday I had tremors under my left eye and by end of day most of my left cheek was numb. My chest feels quite tight. Will I have a heart attak before i get sorted out?
Is it really worth addressing the insomnia with Sleepio when I know it's work/life pressure making me stressed making me sleepless. So easy to write it down, impossible to break the log jam.
Is it OK to be using Zopiclone everyonce in a while to try to get a good night's sleep?